Let's spread this love...

I fight a lot of battles...with myself and all that are close to me. Being the person that I am I demand a lot of those that call me friends.

This guy was getting a lethal injection and as a favor was asked if he could have 5 friends come in before he dies....He said he did not know any 5 people!!

I do not have that much going on but this made me think of a lot of ish that I might be taking for granted...

It is never too late to float away and make sense of all that is going on in your life. I think this is the basic fight of humanity or rather one fight we have to gruel through. All this might suddenly become hopeless if someone has no idea where they are from or where they are going. Luckily, I don't have that much of stuff to ignore... It's so funny how it all seems simple if you have all that is important around you and always constantly remind them of it.... I really do not like social networking sites....not that I'm reductive or backward but for the basic reason that they have taken the essence of caring and concern to the back burner....we all just post pictures to let others know what better things than yours we have been up to...we want to be the hippest of the lot...have most friends and all that mask shit; "I'm more interesting than u syndromme". The Dunbar's Rule does not allow me that luxury and I will forever be grateful. I don't care if I have Facebook, I do not consider anyone a friend of we do not talk at least on a monthly basis. A lot of shit happens in 30days....and my status update is not exhaustive enough for you if you are really a friend. I delete cellphone numbers on monthly basis, bad I know but what are you doing on my phone memory if I don't command an event in your mind... I don't hate you...we just not that close enough to have made it into the future together...

Moral of this....I'm having to stand steadfast on my resolution of keeping the few I have who can stand my arrogance, interesting, over bearing, homorous and appreciating ass. You know I would'nt do this without all 8 of u.....

If it makes u happy...

First post of the month and I'm not myself.... Been feeling off it for some days, damn I can't even explain what is up. Strange this shit... like the Disenchanted Lullaby is playing over and over in my head and I can't turn it off. I grit my teeth a lot nowadays...then I'm an ambivalent picture of solitude...eventually an episode of ecstatic joy and serenity fills in. I could say I'm manic!! Walalala.

Blog this shit out and I'm bound to feel better, or so I convince myself. They say that the best way to get over any situation is to face it head on...what they don't say is that the human set up is not made to deal with the truth. I wanna live in my semblance of security for a little bit longer so I ain't facing anyone (just yet). I'm dazzled, inspired, weighed down at the same time. I wanna know this but it's .....mmmmhhh......Anti Matter I dare say. I'm getting myself some 'novacaine'. Another moment in this undefined reality is not what I want to live through this weekend. Resolute in such a case I hope I don't say something stupid. I was never good at keeping anyone close....always found a way of pushing them to the edge..

Dare I say I'm actually in evidence of some exciiitiiing past days. It is not that bad after all. I wanna live for this moment for I aint letting this get to me. So where are we indulging in this pleasent escapism this weekend??!